I know I have to stop acting like a moony eyed moron. As Seva says, he didn't give you great vibes as a person, so why do you have to let it affect you so much?

While all the words of encouragement and support are greatly appreciated, I have to give myself time to heal. Time to let the heart start beating again. Time to look around me and think life isn't that bad really. Time to look at him and not let myself hope hope and hope.

Hope sucks. Truly.